One measly little mile today, but it was the plan of the day. My legs were still a bit sore from Sunday and I ventured out pretty frustrated with work. Unlike some people, I can’t turn frustration into a good run. Running just seems to frustrate me more. However, I knew I wanted to get out for at least a bit and I looked forward to the walk back to clear my mind. The mile was tough and it didn’t help that as I was running past a wooded section, a dog came running out, causing my heart to jump into my throat (the owner emerge shortly after) and causing even more frustration in the first quarter mile.
I found it interesting earlier that I was debating whether I wanted to run and something playing into the debate was whether I felt like writing about it tonight. I knew I needed to run and write and the combination of not wanting to do either, pushed me out the door knowing I would regret not doing either (yeah, I’m not sure that makes any sense either).
Miles Run: 1.00
Time: 10 minutes, 19 seconds
Miles to Go: 88.96
Days to Go: 121
Average Miles Per Day Needed: 0.74
“Helpless” from Hamilton is a beautiful song. It came up on my playlist as I was wandering back. That whole musical is brilliant and inspiring. I mentioned it previously, but it makes me envious of the talent Lin-Manuel Miranda has along with the vision. Who would think a musical about the first Treasury Secretary of the United States would be so popular? The way the songs convey the story and intertwine with each other. The way the humor mixes with the drama and with the history is simply amazing and uplifting. And it turns me greener than a $10 bill.
Whether it is writing a musical, erecting a building or making a movie, the ability to create is awesome and the people that do these things well inspire me. I like to think of myself as one of these creators, but when I look at someone like Miranda, I might as well say I am a baseball player like Jacob deGrom.
Right now, the 100 miles running seems impossible. Every mile is a challenge, even the “easy” miles. However, I know that with every mile I run, the easier they will be in the future. Five miles in October just might be as challenging as a single mile is now, but those five miles will never get easier without the miles now.
And that’s why I am writing these smaller blogs. The more I write, I hope, the better I’ll get at it. Like each mile will make me more comfortable with future miles, each sentence will help me be more comfortable with future paragraphs. I will never get to the creative level of Lin-Manuel, but maybe I’ll get to a level where I feel like a creator and feel like I am putting something valuable into this world or at least something interesting. So, writing and running feel like they go together right now and maybe in 120 days, I’ll feel more confident about calling myself a runner and a writer. So I’ll need to keep forcing myself out on the road.
I know this is a bit narcissistic, so thanks for indulging me for a bit.
Another thought I had while running is how the hell is it already September 1?
Andrea found this challenge online to run 100 miles between now and the end of the year. I have been wanting to run more consistently and have also been wanting to write more often, so I thought it was perfect. I figure I could run and document it here in my blog.